I miss my life

I’m currently on MC and I’m loving every second I get to spend at home. I’m down with some weird stomach thingy; doctor thinks it’s stomach flu but at least it hasn’t reached the stage where I’m vomiting and diarrhoea-ing 24/7.

Getting to spend some time at home really reminds me of how much I miss what my life used to be. I got a DVD today but I haven’t got to watch it yet. Was busy with dinner because it was mummy’s birthday and I was catching up with people when I got back home. I hope my life isn’t gonna be like this for 2 years man. Don’t know how the hell I’ll be able to keep up with the world.

I’m already done with 8 weeks; I’ve got about 5 more weeks to go. I want it to end for good; going to hell and coming out alive is bad enough, I don’t need to go through it again. Maybe I should just lead a simple life and stay under the radar. I really don’t know what I want at this point.

Happy Birthday Mummy. Sorry I couldn't find a better present.

Please let it be a short week

My New Year celebrations have been good so far and I think that having just 2 days of public holiday isn’t long enough. I got to meet up with relatives after a long time and thankfully didn’t have to put up with the “you got girlfriend” questions (or at least not as much as I was expecting). I guess the ang paos I get can kindda make up for putting up with those inane conversations.

Met up with Ryan today and it was supposed to be my treat but I think we both forgot about it (honestly, if you read this I only remember now that I said it was going to be my treat). He had a lot to talk about but I think I’m seriously forgetting how to use my brains because I was pretty quiet the whole time but today is the day that we decided that we’re gonna grow rich together! I still want my Rado watch though...

This week’s gonna be a short one and I’m hoping it’ll be a good one. I can’t wait for this weekend again because I need to shop! My MP3 player’s gonna die real soon; it’s starting to split apart from one of the corners. Anyone got any good recommendations? And remember, I hate touch sensitive stuff.

I'm back

So basically what happened is that I went on a horrible holiday to a place where there's no such thing as internet and there're no phones, nothing for me to contact the outside world. During my extremely wonderful holiday, I didn't have time to brush my teeth, I couldn't bathe, couldn't wash my face, refused to shit (but I definitely pissed but kept it to a minimum) for 5 days.

What's really interesting about my holiday was that I became a really smelly, really dirty person but I think I kindda got used to it. When I got home, my feet had a 'stench radius' of about 3 meters, my clothes smelled so bad and were so dirty my mummy washed them 3 times, and the best part was that I smelled so bad for so long that I got used to it and I couldn't tell how bad my feet or my clothes smelled.

But the good thing about my holiday was that it really made me learn to appreciate the really basic stuff like having lights on at night, music that's easily available, loved ones and many other stuff.

Anyway, I'm really happy to be back and pigging out like nobody's business. Right now I eat even when I'm full and I ALWAYS have dessert after every meal. I'm looking forward to enjopying my next few days of public holiday and hopefully meet up with friends who remind me that I'm getting skinnier and more autistic by the week.

Long Gone

I'm gonna be gone for a long time. 2 weeks if I'm not wrong. I don't know if I'll still be alive the next time you see me. Pray for me. I'll need it.

Love,
Sean Remiel

Armin van Buuren @ Zouk

Last night was probably the best clubbing experience I’ve had so far and I actually have my sister to thank for that. Being away really does suck because you have no idea what’s going on in the real world or any kind of news that would actually matter in the real world like Armin van Buuren playing at Zouk for example.

He was the main reason why I decided to accompany my sister yesterday and although the club was packed like a sardine can I still had lots of fun and I stayed all the way until 5. Was really tired after that but I must say that it was worth it.

I tried taking a couple of pictures but a 2MP camera phone isn’t able to work miracles in dark places and I didn’t bring the camera since we pretty much left in a hurry which means no pictures. :(

I'm growing brainless

I met up with Isa and Di last night for just a drink. I had just a pint of Hoegaarden or something like that but in those few hours we spent together, Isa made it very clear to me that I was starting to sound like an autistic child. I guess if you've gone through what I have so far, you find having a brain quite a disadvantage.

He also added that I seemed stressed and I wasn't myself anymore, like I wasn't the retarded happy kid who loved to sniff the smell of stale tabacco on him from behind or the same kid that would jump up and down for no reason at all.

I guess that night brought me to realise that I'm slowly growing brainless and it kindda scares me. If that's what I've become, that's how much I've change just over a month, imagine what I'd be like after 3 months. Am I going to become a loser like Loser Parasite? I better start praying and ask for God to save me from that horrible fate.

But over the last 2 days, I've learnt that you can be brainless, speak horrible English and still have the whole world like you. See for yourself.

Gone 2 weeks

It’s been a long time since I last blogged and that’s because I’ve been pretty busy and also because Blackbitch isn’t always with me anymore. Now Blackbitch goes to Timmy during the weekdays and it comes back to me during the weekends, like how a child gets shoved around between father and mother during from weekdays to weekends because they aren’t together anymore.

Anyway, the last 2 weeks have been crazy. There’s just too much to say but simply put, I’ve learnt to appreciate many small things that we’d normally take for granted. Like imagine having no music, no shows to watch, no news for 2 weeks; it’s horrible to say the least.

But over those 2 weeks, I’ve learnt to shut my brain off and play songs in my head which is such a necessity if you’re in my position.