Out of hell and back on Earth

MANY days of MC
6 days straight of not showering, washing my face, brushing my teeth and taking a crap
5 suicidal thoughts
4 weeks of depression
3 months in hell
2 great friends made
1 moron on my hate list
0 cigarettes smoked

As you might have guessed, I managed to survive hell and get out of it. I really don’t know how I did it but I know for sure that I couldn’t have done it without the many words of encouragement from my family and friends.

I have to say that my stay in hell has been crazy. I’ve never felt so desperate, stressed, suicidal, sick, emotionally unstable, depressed, and home sick in my life and all of that at the same time. But all of these negative feelings have made me appreciate the many things that I used to take for granted and that’s one thing that I’m very happy with, learning to appreciate every little thing in life.

But one thing that I’ve learnt to treasure much more now is freedom. It might not occur to you but your freedom comes at the price of another person’s freedom. You might not understand it but once you’re in my shoes I’m sure you will get it.

Despite learning to appreciate many things in life much more and growing up, I don’t like the person that I’ve turned into. I don’t recognise myself anymore and I hope that being out of hell will allow me to change back into the person I used to be.

I have to thank Justin and Nicholas for always being there for me. I really don’t know how I’d have gotten through hell without them. It’s just too bad we never got to take a picture together.

Hope

I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel at last. It's been long enough and I can't wait for this journey to be over. It feels like just a matter of hours before everything's over. I think this feeling is called hope; something I haven't felt in a long while.

Thanks for you positive messages everybody. It helped to keep me going and it also showed who bothered enough to care abou me. I can't wait to come out and celebrate with you guys! I'll be coming out of hell real soon.